big girl problems.

10 Feb

i have called romance
my sister,
but she has hardly
been a friend.
and if i breathe too hard
you’ll hear her
and what i really want to say.
so my tongue catches
my thoughts
as i cling to their secrets
exchanging
only air enough
for ventilation.

butterflies and
skipping heartbeats
are expensive amenities,
and big girls –
we must be practical.
besides,
i’ve learned
that love is a blessing
for those
strong enough
to wear wounds,
and brave enough
for kisses.
and you and i
are neither.

i want you
but first,
i think i’ll hold
my breath.

(artwork by barbara hayes)

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One Response to “big girl problems.”

  1. BP February 10, 2010 at 9:55 pm #

    Kudos!!

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