for my grandma hannah…

22 Feb

i have often complained that i inherited the worst of my parents – my father’s pores, my mother’s lack of hearing, her flakiness, his naivete. and i have always found it tragically unfortunate that i was born with this beast my mother gave me – the laugh she bequeathed from my grandmother. it is the most obnoxious sound. full-bodied, and loud, and overdone. and i have never considered it with any true appreciation – not until this moment, as i am remembering my grandma hannah. i have tried to manage and control it, and altogether change it. but it breathes with its own heartbeat – like it doesn’t even belong to me. i find it embarrassing, but for whatever reason i thought of my grandma hannah today. and the way she used to just laugh and laugh. and hold her side, always tilting her head back – the same way every time. legs jumping, one hand on her knee, another holding a tissue – she always had a tissue, her nails always painted red. and she was always laughing – i think she laughed more than she talked. and when she was around (i am remembering our last thanksgiving), the room was always free and full, and warm. she was contagious. her laughter would become our own. like a love-offering. like a way of telling God, “thank you.” it was the voice of joy. and as i am remembering her, i am seeing her laughter as beautiful. like she was. like i am.

as i am remembering her, i am realizing i must have inherited greatness. and i can’t help but smile…

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2 Responses to “for my grandma hannah…”

  1. denicepoet February 22, 2010 at 9:03 pm #

    she was contagious. her laughter became our own. like a love-offering. like a way of telling God, “thank you.”

    …indeed. great post bonita.

  2. BP February 25, 2010 at 6:03 pm #

    “and as i am remembering her, i am seeing her laughter as beautiful. like she was. like i am.”

    yes, you are TRUE beauty! beautiful poem!!

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